tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10853043.post115259983946311828..comments2023-10-04T06:54:08.484-07:00Comments on NF2 odyssey: Slip Sliding Away....A Hard LessonRebeccahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11258414765006397310noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10853043.post-1154287827897734212006-07-30T12:30:00.000-07:002006-07-30T12:30:00.000-07:00Yes I often get frustrated with it. At the moment...Yes I often get frustrated with it. At the moment that it happens I get angry for feeling drastically aged so early in life. I often need safety precautions like an elderly person. What can be even more maddening is wanting to cry about it but I cannot even do that.<BR/><BR/>At that point I realize there just is nothing I can do or I am in a situation where I am rushed or in front of people. <BR/><BR/>We had a small gathering for a BBQ (a poker party of Harley's friday night). Someone brought the veggie tray outside on the deck table and then the poker moved inside the house. By then it was dark and I had to go out to retrieve it. My toes on the right foot did not quite make the 2nd step on the deck and I tripped sending the veggie tray flying! Good thing it was plastic and not glass!. Of course the whole thing got dumped and was wasted. I tried to give the dogs the veggies and they would not eat them!<BR/><BR/>Anyhow, my point was I had to get up quickly and put a smile on my face. There was no time for feeling sorry for myself, swearing at the top of my lungs, or visibly getting angry about it.<BR/><BR/>You are correct though, people who do not have to deal with it DO NOT understand. I have been in other situations over the past 2 years where people have stared at me as if I was drunk (and even a few people have asked that!) or they think something must be seriously wrong with me because my gait must appear abnormal. Out of the blue and minding my own business I have had people come up to me and ask if I was ok. Or people wonder what the heck is my problem and why it is such a big deal to go down stairs and do it slowly or why I am terrified of jumping on an escalator traveling at warp speed (especially if it is moving in a downward direction!).Rebeccahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11258414765006397310noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10853043.post-1153317977355148152006-07-19T07:06:00.000-07:002006-07-19T07:06:00.000-07:00I know how you feel! I still have a little balance...I know how you feel! I still have a little balance left, but used a cane for a couple months after the tumors started really affecting me, until I could adjust. <BR/><BR/>I have the same problem of "not thinking" and trying to do things the way I used to. Last week I was on the cell phone to another agent, and was trying to carry a large, but light box through the front door at the same time. The corner of the box caught on the door frame and that was enough to completely blow my balance. I actually was able to quickly end the phone call before crashing onto the tile floor, my right knee taking the force of the blow.<BR/><BR/>It really gets me frustrated and angry, but you have to get up and keep going. It's hard sometimes to put it behind you and put the smile back on your face, and people who don't have to deal with this just don't understand. It's frustration and anger more than depression.Stevenhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06385264360966182956noreply@blogger.com